Jun/19
2005
wtf? http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/4107524.stm A Romanian nun has died after being bound to a cross, gagged and left alone for three days in a cold room in a convent, Romanian police have said. Members of the convent in north-west Romania claim Maricica Irina Cornici was possessed and that the crucifixion had been part of an exorcism ritual. And what does the priest who ordered this exorcsim have to say (out of context of course)? I don't understand why journalists are making such a fuss about this. Gee... better make sure that your meds are in full stock before opting to stay at a convent.
Jun/17
2005
What do sex offenders do?.. They prey on kids of course. They snatch them, take them away, force them to live in little rooms with crappy food. Put them through physical abuse and often kill them when they're done. It also sounds like joining the military doesn't it? Well guess what - our 'Family Friendly' government, having used up, burned out and forced into extended tours the military they have are desperate for more soldiers. In an effort to pad their ranks they have turned to our schools as a potential resource of naive, unattached, road-side bomb fodder. Maybe you didn't know this - but the "No Child Left Behind" act included a provision that insisted that High Schools provide personal information on their graduates to the military. (From the AP - as always) A provision of President Bush's No Child Left Behind Act requires school districts to provide military recruiters with student phone numbers and addresses or risk losing millions in federal education funding. Parents or students 18 and over can ''opt out'' by submitting a written request to keep the information private. But putting that aside, our govt isn't targeting everyone equally - they're going after people in lower income and minority areas under the idea that these people will likely have less opportunities to go to college, and at the same time filling their head with Red, White and BS rhetoric about the difference their corpse can make for their country. It's pretty well known that the armed forces are having one hella time getting people to sign up these days. It's shitty that this pseudo-draft is targeting kids at an impressionable age, calling them un-patriotic when they choose NOT to listen or even Opt-out. It's also blatantly clear that the caste system we've imposed designates 'white' and 'upper class' as citizens (you know they're not being recruited) and the rest of us as 'raw materials to be used for personal gain'. Nothing, but nothing would please me more than to see our President and every Senator and Congressman who voted for this war strap on a helmet, grab a gun and get their ass out there instead of some wide-eyed kid who was talked into something they're too damn young to understand. You fucking started this - now fucking finish it.
Jun/17
2005
Blame. Someone needs to have it. And just when you thought you could finally get a break from the Terri saga "OMG HE WAS SLEEPING WITH ANOTHER WOMAN 15 YEARS LATER, HE MUST WANT HER DEAD" (ok, give me a break - I know tons of couples that are better friends after they've moved on to another partner... If you really want to believe that a man can't respect or love his x-wife at the same time he's in a relationship with someone new then maybe you need to examine your own ability to love more than 1 person at a time) well, it's back because FOR FUCK SAKE WE HAVEN'T HAD ENOUGH. Yes that's right, do you need me to say it again? Here - you read the article... TALLAHASSEE, Fla. (AP) -- Gov. Jeb Bush asked a prosecutor Friday to investigate why Terri Schiavo collapsed 15 years ago, calling into question a gap in time from when her husband found the woman and called 911. In a letter he faxed to Pinellas-Pasco County State Attorney Bernie McCabe, Bush said Michael Schiavo testified in a 1992 medical malpractice trial that he found his wife collapsed at 5 a.m. and he said in a 2003 television interview that he found her at about 4:30 a.m. He called 911 at about 5:40 a.m. ''Between 40 and 70 minutes elapsed before the call was made, and I am aware of no explanation for the delay,'' Bush said. ''In light of this new information, I urge you to take a fresh look at this case without any preconceptions as to the outcome.'' If Terrri can't be a martyr then her husband must at least be a villain. The autopsy proved (as best it could) that she did not suffer any abuse prior to slipping into a coma. They could not even show that she had been administered morphine - as her "parents" (read: Side Show Operators) claimed speeded her death. But now, after the Doctors were right, and the person lawfully closest to her FINALLY closes her pathetic existence the Ring Master himself, Herr Jeb, has decided to waste MORE public time and money to extract a pound of flesh from her husband. You can just imagine what's going through ~his~ brain: "Well, fuck - that Evil Science has proved me wrong, but yet I MUST obtain more news footage, I MUST recapture the christain frenzy to bask in... Evil has been committed and I, I, the man who made my brother president in the first place must prove that "Gods Will" (meaning JUSTICE FOR TERRI) should prevail." HELLO YOU FUCKING IDIOT - YOUR STATE IS GOING TO HELL ALREADY - WHY NOT FOCUS ON THE LIVING? Lets see, how many children have been murdered recently by molesters in florida just this year? Guess that's not important, is it. I got news for you, Mr. Govenor, crucifying this man over his wife's collapse 15 years after it happened is NOT going to guarantee you a spot in heaven, if anything your blatant disregard for the rights and liberties of the individual (as has been constantly and unanimously upheld by our justice system in EVERY instance) will save you a seat right next to the other dead fanatics in history. Say hello to Mussolini for me wouldja? Kek thx.
Jun/16
2005
Icy air blows down, Flourscents flicker 60 Hz, Telecon endless...
Jun/16
2005
Ok well the autopsy is done and the scientific proof is available that Terry Schiavo was honestly and truly a mental turnip. Her doctors were right, she -was- in a permanent vegetative state which no amount of hope or bible waving would/could ever cure. The press, the whip-boys behind the emotional frenzy, feeding the masses carefully tailored images of hypothetical interaction are most notably silent now. And the answer to the burning question of her mental capacity warrants hardly a burp on a side page. Funny yes? Remember folks news and truth are NOT synonymous. Facts only interest the press when it can help them sell papers(old school), I mean get hoards of mindless, drooling viewers welded to the wall-mount TV's in the waiting rooms, laundromats, and airports in stationary - jaw open masses. And an apology for the astronomical amount of man-hours wasted by the public on this pathetic mirage generated BY the press is certainly not forthcoming FROM the press. Yeah they did it and no they're not sorry, they're proud. If it doesn't smell like death or torture to a preferably white, preferably female victim well then hell - who cares? What about the rapes, tortures and mutilations in Darfur... oh wait they're black. What if Terry had been hispanic or asian, it wouldn't have made much news. I sincerely doubt the Pope would have even given it a passing thought if she was Greek Orthadox or Mormon - much less some non-christain denomination, since Catholics seem to define the humanity worth fighting for very narrowly. Terri saturated everyone's lives to the point where the only news that could follow that act was the death of the Pope. Even the daily mortality tally from Iraq (in American lives, not Iraqi) has become a decidedly un-patriotic topic of conversation. Our government wants the public focused on the grandeur of our mission, not the bloody details. I'm not advocating that our news return to soul-scarring bluntness of the Vietnam-era, but if we're to be subjected to 24-hour concern about the health and welfare of an individual (to the point where our Senate can actually wake up and take furious action) then maybe the press should spread the wealth and focus on different victims, different lives, even here in the US. Pipe dream, the Terry's and Laci's are the saints of our day, complete with tv-drama stigmata. Aided and abetted by a government that values faith over reason, there's no hope for rational reporting for at least a half a decade to come...
Jun/16
2005
So on the 11th I got email from a friend of mine. I met Dubious when I started renting an Unreal Tournament server from him (He owned and operated 'The Factory' Unreal from his apartment). I rather liked to think I knew Jeff pretty well so when I read his email on how he saw the face of Jesus on his bathroom wall, I figured it was a little amusing sent him a reply to the effect that I always knew his sanity was questionable and promptly forgot all about it....Until I read the news today: Water - Stained Jesus Image to Be Auctioned Published: June 16, 2005 Filed at 11:22 a.m. ET PITTSBURGH (AP) -- Some may see it as a sign to call a plumber, but a Pittsburgh man sees the divine. Jeffrey Rigo, 30, an Internet network engineer, is auctioning off a piece of water-stained plaster from his bathroom that he says looks like an image of Jesus Christ. Rigo says he saw the image when he stepped out his shower Saturday evening. ''I got out of the shower and yelled, 'Jesus Christ!''' Rigo told the Pittsburgh Tribune-Review in a story published Thursday. ''My girlfriend asked me, 'Oh, my God, what is it?' I pointed and responded, 'No, Jesus Christ!''' Rigo is seeking at least $1,999.99 for the water-stained piece of plaster he's dubbed ''Shower Jesus'' on online auction Web site eBay. Well Holy Soggy Saviors. He wasn't kidding. In his email he had mentioned taking offers, but again - I just laughed it off. Of course upon mentioning this to my semi-awake (in that post-lunch protein coma) friends they made a very valid point... ">is he sure that it's not Ted Nuggent? > because that's an important distinction > You do NOT want to get Jesus and Ted Nuggent confused with each other" You have a point there Lara.... though I'm not entirely certain that while you're right - that "there's a lot of conservative metal heads who regard Ted as a role model", having Uncle Tedly's face on your sheet rock just won't provide the same righetous fervor in a financial sense as Jesus. None the less, it IS food for thought....
Jun/13
2005

out of memory

So the last hours of my time have been spent doing mindless data entry into @!#$#$% Vitech CORE, when the program goes belly up.

The database I'm working on is either 11.5 mb or 776k gzipped (so you can see how bloated the native rdt file is...), and yet CORE takes up a staggering 190 mb of ram in normal operation. Apparently, even that corpulent amount was not enough today. Clicking anything at all would stop me cold printing:
CORE out of memory

Why it didn't force a garbage collect is beyond me... I can't beleive we pay thousands of dollars we pay for this System Engineering P.O.S.

Jun/13
2005

A loaded dog

Please explain to me why people insist on keeping the animal equivalent of a loaded gun in their homes. Yes it's a trite phrase, but it's only trite because of the news articles (about 1 a month) that describe in recurring detail the death of (usually) a child/elderly at the hands of a (usually) pitbull/rottweiler - type dog. The most recent article was about 2 pitbulls and a 12 year old. Get this: SAN FRANCISCO (AP) -- The mother of a 12-year-old boy killed in his own home by one of the family's two pit bulls said she had been so concerned about one of the dogs that she shut her son in the basement to protect him. According to her story - she knew they dogs were dangerous, so she goes and tries to barricade her son in the basement, even putting a shovel against the door to keep him in... but he manages to get out. Ok - WHAT THE FUCK. Yes that deserves caps. Seriously though, you put your 12 year old son in the basement? And not the dogs? And you lock him down there for HIS safety? Apparently the female, of the pair of pitbulls, was in heat so the male was acting possessive. The mom knew this and still left the child home with essentially feral animals. Better yet, to "defend herself against the public outcry against parents who keep pitbulls" she tells this story... and basically blames her son for getting out of the basement. 'I put him down there, with a shovel on the door,'' Faibish told the San Francisco Chronicle. ''And I told him: 'Stay down there until I come back.' Typical Nicky, he wouldn't listen to me.'' Yeah and now typical Nicky is typically dead as what often happens, typically, with feriocious carnivores that are kept in a home. Maybe the kid had to go to the bathroom, or maybe he needed a tissue or a snack - yeah lock the child in the basement because why? probably the mother was too damn afraid of the dogs to get them in there rather than her own son. Well once again I suppose Darwin has the last laugh. If you're retarded enough to keep man-killers in the house (of any species - not just dogs but cats, remember the guy with the fully grown tiger in his bronx apartment?) then you deserve what you get. Of course the primary regret is that it was the son had to be the victim, and not her. Yeah I'm sure they're all cute as puppies you dumb bitch - but keep in mind when you're actually afraid of your dog - that it was you that put that loaded gun in your house in the first place....
Jun/08
2005

Love in Action.

It seems like a great name. Love in Action. I envision a nice retreat for young couples out in the mountains. Or crisp cool air blowing across a couple only beach on a nice tropical isle. Sadly that is not this place. It’s a ‘camp’. As in concentration camp. This place is, in fact, a hellhole. A place designed by the most bigoted, and loathsome people. Solitary confinement and brainwashing. What could be the purpose of this horrible place? Well, this is a place for parents to send their children of course. To learn about the word and will of their Lord and Savior. Not just any children of course. Bad children. Naughty children. GAY CHILDREN. That’s right, it’s a place where parents, who have no respect for their children, can send them to be ‘retrained’ to be straight. From the director of the camp, we get this pearl of wisdom I would rather you commit suicide than have you leave Love In Action wanting to return to the gay lifestyle. In a physical death you could still have a spiritual resurrection; whereas, returning to homosexuality you are yielding yourself to a spiritual death from which there is no recovery. There really are no words. Now, the very IDEA of sending my kid to be reprogrammed is abhorrent to me. I have no idea what could possibly possess them. Aside from all of that, the rules of this place are… well… special. I’m sure it’s easy to guess most of them. Must dress properly with girls in dresses, and men in button down shirts. Don’t be gay. That sort of thing. But then there are the extra special rules. For the first 3 or 4 days of the program, you are locked into a small room, forbidden from communicating with anyone except staff. Afterward, all of your communications will be monitored to ensure appropriateness (don’t be gay). Also, you are allowed one 15 minute period with the bathroom door closed for showering purposes. All other time in the bathroom, the door must be open. But that’s just the rules for the ‘refuge client’. The rules for the parents are amazingly more ignorant. “Don¹t allow client to split your family. Unite to present stability and unity.” So… parents should form a nice wall to help ostracize the child further. Good idea. “Your client is not allowed to talk to anyone outside of your home including friends or family. Do not tell client who has called for them or who is asking about them. Keep the thoughts of the client focused on his/her treatment.” Another great idea. Cut them off from their support group!!! I suppose it does fit their purpose of doing enough mental damage to someone that they will agree to anything. Now, you may wonder, how did this demonic camp come to my attention? Well, I followed a link to a blog. The link was innocent and unrelated. But the last three days of this blog consist of a 16 year old boy's terror story about his parents reaction to his coming out. They decided the right course to take was to tell him that they “raised him wrong” and that he was the “most irresponsible child” they had ever met. His last communication, dated the 3rd, indicated that he was supposed to start this camp on the 6th. But it appeared that he was considering other alternatives to get away from his parents before then.
“I just need this to be over” “If I do come out straight I'll be so mentally unstable and depressed it wont matter” “I ran away for a short while”. “I've been through hell. I've been emotionally torn apart for three days... I can't remember which days they were.. time's not what it used to be.”
Yeah. I’m sure all this torture they are inflicting him is really helping him understand the kindness, understanding and compassion that Jesus taught. I mean, what kind of sick fucks do this to their children? And do they even think of the consequences? This is a young kid, who will probably never, ever forgive them. In two years, he’ll move out, and they will probably never see him again. If my son was a mass murderer, I’d treat him better than this. Bastard parents.. May they rot in a special private hell.
Jun/08
2005
Ah once again my hat is off to that lovely Cornucopia of information - the AP Wire... Take it away boys: Filed at 10:10 p.m. ET IN THE GENES: A British study of twins suggests genetics have a lot to do with whether a woman can have an orgasm. IS THAT BAD? Yes and no, experts say. It might cause some women to give up hope but also may remove the pressure some women put on themselves if they can't reach orgasm. WHAT IT MEANS: Learning more about sexual function will help scientists find better ways to treat sexual problems. What a tease eh? They go to all the trouble to produce a sure-fire attention grabbing headline and then follow it up with 3 sentences. Talk about disfunction and disappointment. That article could certainly use a horse-sized pill of a content equivalent of Viagra. Still it's the underlying concept here that's the point, so lets roll with it shall we? Upon more digging for this somewhat illusive article I did manage to extract more data which goes on to day that they found that the "similarity of experience" wrt orgasm was greater in identical twins over fraternal. This I can attest to, having shared living space with a pair of voracious twins in college. One twin apparently was enjoying sex to the fullest at the merry age of 16, the other couldn't accomplish the same feat until she was 21. And while the more detailed article seems to linger on the environmental concerns that might provide a factor between the have's and have nots (factors such as upbringing, quality of relationship, over all comfort with oneself, etc.) it does not delve in any respects into what I would call (yes I'm making this term up but I find it appropriate) "neural maturity". My hypothesis on this matter is quite simple: It takes longer for some women to mature the neural pathways to achieve an orgasm than others - and in some cases this necessary maturity simply isn't reached. Now it may be that this is the underlying basis of the genetic argument, but from what I've read it's not clear. A perhaps crude but legitimate analogy is sports. You do not start off being adept at the certain motions that optimize a sport (the way you run, the way you swing a bat or a racket) but over time and practice you develop the gross motion and move on to refining the smaller movements necessary to really get the most efficiency. On the other hand there are people who are brilliant from the very start. I would put forward that the same is true for women and sex. Now I shall refrain (and I'll accept your thanks here) from making all sorts of wonderfully crude sports metaphors with respect to sex (feel free of course to post those in the comments) but I will conclude that as with anything you really and truly desire - hard work and commitment are the necessary ingredients to success in all things, sex included. And if an orgasm is your grail, well then, by all means let nothing stop you from that noble goal.... however on the other hand if you aren't able to manage to please yourself (regardless of the gymnastics you try) then one might suggest that perhaps you should look within before wearing yourself without.
Jun/08
2005

The windows of summer

I was stuck in traffic yesterday and paused to marvel at the robustness of my fellow traffic jammers. The weather here has just turned nice, nice meaning warm, not rainy, not damp, not under 60 - yes warm. For the last 'n' months I've looked out through the closed windows of my car at my commute, and longed for the time when I could at least stick out an elbow or crank the sunroof without having to compensate with additional warmth from the moisture-leeching heater. At very long last it's here, and much to my astonishment the same people I saw huddled in their vehicles on the frosty, icy, rainy mornings are now entombed in much the same way against the "heat". It would seem that any variation in ambient temperature must put these folks into agonizing, thrashing throes which my imagination attributes to fish far from water. One wonders that if indeed an apocalyptic event should occur to prevent their environment to be moderated to (what? I don't know - 65 degrees?) some tightly regulated temperature that the suffering would be immense.... I picture vast swaths of business and informal work attired folks dragging themselves by one hand along the roadway gasping their summer mantra.... "Airconditioning...."
Jun/07
2005
Good news! For the month of June, you too can receive the higly coveted GM Employee Discount as a member of the general car-buying public! http://www.theautochannel.com/news/2005/06/01/110786.html But on the other hand, GM has decided to cut jobs and close some of its plants. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8129876/ "Let's offer a huge buying incentive while we trash a huge chunk of our work force!" I'm trying to figure out if this the fat cats trying to cut their costs while blowing sales through the roof - essentailly creating a huge windfall for the corporation - or if this is a sign of the industry giant truly in trouble and doing some serious fighting to stay alive. But who cares? The new Harry Potter book comes out in July.
Jun/07
2005

Deviloution

Jun/07
2005
Here's the story in a nutshell. Girl gets pregnant and suddenly decides that she can't go through with it. She tries to make herself miscarry and eventually asks her boyfriend for help. Eventually she miscarries although no one can say for certain whose actions really caused it. The state finds out and although she has defended his actions as being at her request, he is condemned him to life in prison. Here's the actual snippet from the AP: LUFKIN, Texas (AP) -- A 19-year-old accused of causing his teenage girlfriend to miscarry two fetuses by stepping on her stomach was convicted Monday of two counts of murder. Gerardo Flores received an automatic life sentence because prosecutors did not seek the death penalty, which was available under the state's 2003 fetus protection law. Erica Basoria, 17, acknowledged asking Flores to help end her pregnancy; she could not be prosecuted because of her legal right to abortion. The defense contended that Basoria punched herself while Flores was stepping on her, making it impossible to tell who caused the miscarriage. Her family, it seems, is happy with themselves - although she is destroyed by the whole event. The unwritten part of this seems that her family are actually the malcontents here. It's pretty easy to infer, if they're happy with the situation that they neither wanted her to date this man, nor did she feel they would support her in having an abortion. Left with the choice of having the babies or putting herself through pain, it's pretty clear what this girl decided she had to do. Texas is about as a mysogenistic state as it gets, though probably tied for first place with Florida. South Dakota recently made the news with this little gem: PIERRE, S.D. (AP) -- Planned Parenthood asked a federal judge Monday to strike down a new South Dakota abortion law, saying it would force doctors to read inaccurate, state-scripted medical information to women seeking abortions. The group filed a lawsuit challenging the new statute in federal court in Sioux Falls, said Kate Looby, director of the Planned Parenthood clinic there. ''Politicians can't force doctors to tell patients things that aren't true. That's bad medicine,'' Looby said. ''Just because politicians believe something is true doesn't make it so.'' ... The new law, scheduled to take effect July 1, would require doctors to inform women seeking abortions that the procedure ends the life of a human and terminates the constitutional relationship a woman has with her unborn child. It also requires doctors to tell women about the medical risks of abortion, including a statement that abortion could cause an increased risk of suicide. Fucking amazing isn't it? Lets see now - having an abortion might have an increased risk of suicide - and carrying an unwanted pregancy to term doesn't. Oh fucking come ON here. What about the risk of no future for the mother or the unwanted baby? The pope recently weighed in on Abortion - in the terms of defining marriage as being singularly between a man and a woman. His concept that having a baby is the culmination of this relationship is so unbelieveably narrow that it boggles the mind. The fact is that until women can choose not to become pregnant in the first place, they all share the risk of being forced to carry a child they do not want. And that is the actual crime.
Jun/06
2005
The way a friend of mine "ear-marks" guys is becoming annoying. We are both single and similar age. She is a bit more outgoing than I and meets more people, but just cause she meets them first does that mean I only get a shot at the guys she has rejected? Case in point: She has a vacation cabin on a lake and she has taken a liking to one of the single guys there. I only hear about him occationally. He seems to like her, but hasn't given her anything concrete to make her think he likes her in a romantic way. Well, I finally met him. Seems nice enough. We were sitting around at a picnic table drinking and talking and I feel a distinct presence on my feet. I shift a bit - still there. By god - he's playing footsy with me! I played along - not like we were exchanging body fluids. Next morning I find out she "really likes him". Do I tell her what he did the night before? Do I keep it to myself? I've know her long enought to know "really likes him" means treat him like he's my man - hands off. Then she goes on the recount a dream where I am coming on to him and she finally confronts him. No way she saw the foot action - too dark. Maybe I won't see him again - make life easier. But its likely I will, and I will have to deal with it then. Is it loyalty to friend or all's fair in love and war?
Jun/06
2005
I had to stop by Walmart on Saturday. I didn't notice the handicapped buses outside, but they must have been there. Now, I'm not against mainstreaming disabled people. But, did they have to mainstream a whole bunch on the same day in one smallish Walmart? I think every disabled person in my cow-poke town was there. Every single aisle I turned down was clogged with wheelchairs, people on crutches and their helpers. It was like navigating an obstacle course. Even almost tripped over a few because everyone was oblivious and just coming out of now where. Next time I'll look for the buses and if they are there, my first stop will be the sporting goods department for some goalie gear!